| Current mood: |  grateful |
| Current music: | Lys telling mom about her trip |
home again
Chris and Lys got in around midnight last night. I can't even put into words how it felt to see him walk toward me with Lys asleep in his arms. All the love I could possibly muster poured through my body, and I know I was standing there with a shit eating grin. Just to be able to touch him again, to kiss him, it was a taste of heaven. I know it was only a week, but for some reason this time seemed like years. What am I going to do when he starts the tour with Beck...and then his own afterwards? And what happens if I have to start traveling to promote the album? We'll get through it, I know we will, but it's not going to be fun or easy.
He's exhausted. I'm so thankful for my mom staying with us last night and tonight to give us a little rest. He needs it, and I do too when it comes down to it. It's so hard to sleep alone anymore. Most nights I just laid there, staring at the ceiling, hoping one of the twins would cry so I could get my mind off the distance. And when they didn't, I usually found myself in the nursery anyway, standing over their cribs, watching them sleep, wishing he were by my side.
Lindsey is amazing. I was a little worried about the whole thing since we didn't have time to meet with her before it all started, but everything turned out wonderful. Lys' speech has already improved dramatically, and from what Chris has told me, they hit it off immediately. Lys has spent every waking moment telling my mom and I about how she and Linds are the best of friends, and all about their adventures in the city together. I guess Lys ran out on stage with Chris last night though. I'm not quite sure how to feel about that. I know Chris doesn't want to have to explain himself constantly, and part of me feels guilty that he has that extra responsibility now, because of me. He said it was okay, but I still worry. I can only imagine what the buzz is now with his fans. She's too young to tell her to try not to call Chris dad around his fans, and I don't even know if that's something I'd want to do to her if she would understand it. I just wish there were some way to keep our private and professional lives completely seperate, but it's impossible when you have children. Sometimes I get a little upset because I feel as if he wants to keep it a secret, but then again, I understand. I, personally, would shout it from the top of buildings if I could, and who cares if it deprives me of a few record sales, but I respect the fact that it's something he wants to stay quiet about.
Well, Lys wants to ride her bike, and mom is busy with the twins, so...duty calls.
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