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I'm leavin on a jet plane
I'm going back to LA tomorrow. Lys is going to stay here with Chris so we can get her back in school. I...I'm not quite sure what's going on with Chris and I. Right now, I think the main concern is Alyssa. We're talking, we're sleeping in the same bed, everything's okay, but it's not what it used to be. I can't expect it to be. I have so much guilt hanging over my head that I'm not sure if it's because of me or not. We talked about him adopting Lys once everything gets settled. It wouldn't change anything...he's already her father. She calls him dad now. It would just be official.
Trish called yesterday. She wants to take Alyssa on a vacation. I can't let her. She's still with that asshole. She said he wasn't going, but how can I trust her? Am I wrong for keeping Lys from her mother? I don't know anymore.
The babies are thriving, despite Tina's constant decline. It will be a miracle if this goes to term.
I love him more than anything. I wish there were some way I could show him that.
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