here i am...
there isn't a day that goes by, a moment, a breath, where i don't think about it. it is the oldest battle, and the longest war that has faced man-kind since the beginning of time. the constant struggle of an addict. I live day to day wishing for just one more hit, one more drink, one more cigarette all the while hearing in my subconcious, the sweet voices of my children and their innocent request for my attention. but as i inhale the smoke, snort that line, drink from that bottle, and pop those pills, the voices get fainter and fainter until the drugs are the only thing i hear. once the fog clears, i see my babies in the distance, and wonder how i could hurt them any worse than i already have.
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