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I realised that many have shifted blog spaces a few times since online journalling became a craze years ago. From being a space to share and update your personal life to friends and family, now it also provides a space to give your opinions on matters which you are not allowed to share or nobody is interested to hear in real life (it's more effective than Speaker's Corner, reaches a wider audience and you dont need a license!), showcase photography skills of scenery, food, etc, or glorious self-portrait shots, explore themes and issues of your interest, etc. It is much more convenient and has phased out personal webpage. Anyway, here I am today still, using the online journal for the most fundamental purpose of writing about my life when I feel like it, with no photos, proper formating or language editing, even. Not even bothering to lock it or sieve out sensitive information or concern about advertisements plastered all over, or comparing one journal application to other available, newer and better ones. Not adaptable to the fast-changing world? Or rather, choosing not to follow the world of advance technology, ha! So who's still reading this old-fashioned blurty? Probably not many... ;P So am I gonna change to make my blog more reader-friendly? More interesting and trendy? ... one should be glad I'm even taking time out to type this...! Maybe I'm just not so much a homebody. I realised this last week when I spent almost the whole Sat at home. It was a tough period. Issues which I have always avoided sprouted freely, such as family relationships, my unhappiness at us having China tenants in our house without my agreement, disagreement between my brother and I, etc. However, I learnt to face these issues squarely and prayed for the ability to conquer them. To learn to be more loving and extending the Christian values I believe in and have been trying to incalcuate in myself to the ReAL wOrLd. Not just in church and with my church communities. Home is where the test is. And I am aware that they are watching my behaviour knowing that I am spending most of my time with the church. Thankfully I could see these and I would say that I survived the test, though barely. Fully accepting oneself, I learnt, includes being comfortable with who you are in your most unguarded moments. For example and most usually, at home. It is to be happy with who you are in the middle of the night in solitude and silence. Today, I would say it's about the 2nd time I am spending half a day or more at home. And I am starting to enjoy the personal time, abit too much I think. I am super happy having the time to sort out my photos, search for my fave worship songs on youtube and learn and practise the strumming patterns, read newspapers, blog, read. And having warm and close bonding time with loved ones is no longer an illusion, I can have that more and more with my mom and brother, etc. I could most probably swing to being a loner. Which is a pretty scary thought to me. Since 17, I still remember thinking this while lying on my sofa in the living room, I had stopped having personal time. Anyway, I do realise that my post content seems de-sync from my post title. So after the inevitable random musing, here it goes, things which made me happy recently: - Discovering by chance that my new cpu has an in-built XD card reader. Had lost the usb cord for my brand new 10 megapixels olympus camera, and spent the whole of last Sat searching for it in my room. Now I can upload my photos! - Tidying up my whole room in the midst of searching for the usb cord which still cannot be found. - Finding the fave diving t-shirt and 3/4 pants that were thought to be lost as mom misplaced them in my bro's wardrobe. - Getting along with my colleagues, including the ex-pregnant gal I had a huge conflict with before. After retuning from Redang, one of my greatest sadness was still that my workplace is like an ice palace, and we didnt even eat lunch with one another. However, miraculously, He answered my prayer and I barely had a silo lunch these days since the 1st day I came back from the trip! This is despite that S whom I went to Redang with and who was my regular lunchmate (once a week) had left the organisation after our Redang trip (and I really miss her :(), and CC claims that it is too rushed for us to meet for lunch (:(). Now, at the very least we joke around and I feel more comfortable making my tongue-in-cheek, corny remarks at work ;) Thank God! - The latest, passing my advance theory test yesterday! You may think this is nothing, but hey, I never felt so kan cheong about taking theory tests before. Somehow, this just doesnt come naturally to me maybe cos I dont really have a great interest in driving a car. I still prefer to be driven around! But despite these (and Im the kind who needs to like something to do well in it), I still managed to get past the advance theory test. So there, more next time :) Post a comment in response: |
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