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Ok so, I went to Erika's last night...man. I will say one fucking thing. The Whatever she has in her house is just plain creepy. Fecking creepy. Like, I didn't feel anything watching me, but I knew it was there all the same. Like, it hid from me. When Kelly open the closet door, I immediatly got this flash of a dead body. I didn't WANT her to open the door. No fecking way. She did it anyways. She said the first time she opened the door, she saw a hanging body. Dennis saw the same thing. I just sensed...death. It was gross. There were only 2 cold spots this time. They weren't even that cold, which means it WAS there, but it left. Residual temperature flux. Kelly wants to draw it out, I dont know if that's a good idea anymore since Erika told me that it gets bolder & more brazen as time goes by. I dont want to bring anything out that is getting steadily more agressive. That's not the best idea in the World y'know? Especially since I've no clue how to cast a circle. Not a good idea at all.
But ti was interesting. Kelly is all gung ho about starting up her Spiritual group. So we all went down to the Library & checked out an assload of books to research. I got one called "The X-rated Bible" it's fucking awesome so far! It goes into how the Bible gets pretty vulgar. Lots of rape, incest, gay lust...ect. Rachel pretty much has me hooked on going deeper into the whole Christianity thing. MmMmMm questing for knowledge.
I'm reading my Oracle cards more often & it's fucking crazy because the readings I am getting could really go either way. Since they are non-definitive...every reading I get say if I move in a certain direction...something good will come of it, maybe through pain, maybe not. Who knows? It makes me aggro because I want to know what direction to take really ( I'm speaking about Chris ) I get the card of gut feelings & the card of random events & not to mention the card of taking risks. It's frustrating...not knowing what would be smart & what isn't smart at all. I'd really like to know. Either way, I told him I would give him another chance, & I'm goddamn going to. I haven't broken my word to him yet & I dont plan on doing so. Something about him...makes me WANT to. It's mind boggling since I do NOT give second chances. I just...never had. I have that whole "fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me" mentality. So this is a whole new thing for me & quite frankly it scares the everloving piss out of me. Mleh.
I'm cold & my tattoo itches. Someone come hold me & scratch my back!
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