| Current mood: |  confused |
| Current music: | MXPX - Sometimes You Have To Ask Yourself |
Um...I just got called weird. I wont say who by, but normally my response to being called weird is to jump up & scream "WOO PUNKRAWK!" & do a dance or something. But um, now I find it unsettling...I dont know. Now my brain is really working itself. I always thought I was a little on the odd side but I never dubbed myself *WEIRD*
"Weird" is a term I apply to those kids in the Lunchroom who spend thier breaks playing Magic the Gathering & arguing about which chick on Star Trek is hotter. Y'know? Fuck. My head is swimming. Am I really weird? Like...*really* weird?! How weird am I? Jesus...HOW LONG HAS THIS BEEN GOING ON?!
WHY DIDN'T SOMEONE TELL ME THIS SOONER?! Goddamn...
Weird. I'm...weird. Shit. This is GAY! I dont want to be weird!!!!! I want to be unusual...but I dont want to be WEIRD!
This is most disturbing. Now I dont wanna go anywhere. Because I'll be the "weird" one. *sigh* Another Hermit month is creeping up on me. I can feeeeel it coming now. I'm going to be all self concious because I'm weird.
I guess...I dunno...I'm gonna have to ask people. One guy's opinion...but STILL FUCK HE SAID I WAS WEIRD! AND I DIDN'T LIKE IT!!! AND I DIDN'T HAVE A SMARTASS COMMENT!!!!!! What the HELL is going on?!
First off...why the HELL should I fucking care about what he thinks of me?! We hardly know each other first off...
PLENTY of people have called me weird & I never cared about it when THEY said it. So what makes this guy the exception?! WHY?! NYYAAAAAGGGHHHH
*ahem* Dos...I can just IGNORE him if I wanted to, it's not like we're married or anything. I can stop talking to him whenever I wanted & it wouldn't make a damned difference to either one of us, but I dont WANT to. Now I want to like change his mind & shit. Show him how un-weird I am. But I can't because I *am* unusual...I'm "unconventional", I am not "your typical ho". But WEIRD?! I dont even like the way it sounds in my head. Makes me wrinkle my nose up in disgust just THINKING about the fact that someone out there thinks I am weird & I care about it. How fucking unsettling. I'm not going to be able to sleep well tonight I know that. I'll be up all night thinking about how "weird" I am & drive myself insane before dawn.
Weird...me?! DAMNIT! NO!
First I get called GOTH, then I get called WEIRD! What the HELL is going on here?! You people PISS ME OFF!
STOP CALLING ME NASTY NAMES! I'M A FRAGILE DELICATE LITTLE FLOWER WHO WILL CRUMPLE INTO THE TINIEST PIECES IF THE WIND BLOWS ME THE WRONG WAY & YOU PEOPLE ARE FUCKIN WITH MY HEAD & THAT'S JUST NOT COOL!!!
gah
GAH!
I'm gonna GO now.
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