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Paralyzing Silence...
I'm the type of person who doesn't think about consequences before she gets herself into a situation. I love freely and I love hard. I don't bother thinking about the pain or consequences that may come out of a situation. But now, I'm changing my views on things. I'm not scared to get hurt anymore. I'm so used to it, what's the point in trying to hide from the pain? Why not give it one more go? If this works out then it works out, and if it doesn't then it doesn't. I'm just finally starting to just go with it, and if i get hurt, then i get hurt, and if i dont, then i dont. if he wants me he can have me, if he doesnt then he doesnt have to have me. if he wants to fool around with me, then he can fool around with me, as low as that makes me sound...im just going with it. i mean, do i want to be with him? do i want all of him? do i want all of his cute adorableness? do i want him to be the one to change it all around for me? of course...but whats the hope in hoping? That's where I'm at right now. I mean yes, I want this one to be different, but who knows if it will be? No one does until I give it a chance. I've given up trying to figure out whats different about this boy. All I know is that I like it. Theres not point in trying to figure it out, cause I'll just get frustrated...
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