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| Current music: | Alkaline Trio - Every Thug Needs a Lady |
Flying.
So we're on a break now. Got about a month off before we head to Japan.
It's amazing how I can be around someone so much and never get tired of them. She makes life fun. That's the bottom line. She never fails to make me laugh, to make me happy, to make me feel lucky as hell that I'm married to her. I don't know if she purposely tries to do that or if it's something that comes naturally to her. But either way she never fails. I wish I'd always known her. I wish back when I met her during Little Things that somethin' would've happened between us then. But I'm sure it wouldn't have worked out, cause we were different people then. We both had to grow up and experience things before we finally found each other. At least that's what I keep tellin' myself. I don't like thinking I could've had this kinda love a long time ago if only I'd opened up my eyes to it.
She took me skydiving last night. She walked through the doors and asked me if I was tired. I told her I wasn't, then she threw a blindfold on me and pushed me into a car. I kept askin' her where we were goin'. I was nervous, I thought maybe she'd finally turned on me and sold me to the mob in exchange for cash. But of course that didn't happen. She led me to a plane, we got on, I could hear the engine but I still wasn't sure what was goin' on. Then this guy strapped something onto my back and I finally started to catch on. Just then she took off the blindfold. I looked around and got the most nervous rush to my stomach. I felt like I was gonna puke at any minute. See I have a thing about heights. Yeah, I don't like 'em. Mandy hates planes.. but amazingly enough on this one she was as cool as a cat. She told me what was goin' on. I kept laughing and asking if she was serious. She took off all her equipment and ran at me, causin' me to fall out of the plane as she held onto me. I screamed the whole fuckin' time. The loudest I could possibly scream. It was great, you know. She's crazy and great like that. She pulled the chord on the parachute cause I was too busy screaming with my eyes shut to think about it. And then we just.. flew there.. together. God I love her. I wouldn't trade anythin' for what I have with her. She lights up my life.
Then today she decided she wanted us to go bungee jumping. As much as I love her, I know she's gonna put some gray hairs on my head before I reach 30. *smirks* It was fun too though. Really fun. One thing I love 'bout her is that she doesn't make fun of me even when she knows I'm nervous as hell. I was literally shakin' today, all nervous about it. She didn't point it out though, she didn't make fun of me. She just told me to trust her on it and that was that. She did the grabbin' onto me and pushing me over the edge today too during the bungee jumping. I screamed of course. Only that was.. a lot harder to get down from with no one else there to help us.
This is really random, but I just wanna say that I really love watchin' her sleep. She's so beautiful it hurts. She'll get this really cute pouty look goin' on and it just kills me to wonder what she's dreaming about. Whenever I can't sleep, I just lay beside her and watch her. I feel like I'm fallin' in love with her all over again even though I never fell out of love with her. She makes me happy. Happier than I've ever been. Even when she's molesting me in front of people and telling them things about me they prolly shouldn't know.. *laughs* But yeah, I love her more than anyone will ever be able to comprehend.
punkd mandy: *smiles* You trust me, right? I wouldn't let anything bad happen to you.
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