|Current mood:|| restless|
|Current music:||the who|
*spazes out* jeremy e-mailed me back!!! gah!! i cant believe it! he said sorry and we can be friends!!! gah!! *im all happy like!!! i feel sooo good...hehehehe. on another note, my dad is a fuck face. i got in the fucking biggest fight with him yesterday...god...i hate him. he expects the whole fucking world to revolve around him. and the only time he really talks to me is when he is out of it....i dont know, i just want a real father. thats all ive ever wanted. even when i was little he was like this....dad's are supposed to protect you from evil and hurtyness. i want him to care. i want him to love me...and every fucking day i get my hopes up and they just fucking come crashing down on me. my dad is a retard. i cant change that, so i just have to get used to it. FUCK!! enid is crazy!! omg, why is she being all buddy buddy like with meghan and deedee??????? I DONT UNDERSTAND!!! SHE THINKS THE SAME THINGS AS I DO!!!! OMG!!!! people are talking about them and being all buddy buddy like with them. i dont understand!!! that is just going to hurt meghan and deedee, and maybe even you if they fucking hear anything about you saying shit. this is totially insane. im not saying she cant be friends with them, im saying that she thinks the same as i do. and i thought she was going to no be friends with them anymore...im so confused. you hate them, yet youre willing to kick it with them and fucking lie to thier faces. i do not understand anything anymore. this is totially insane. im not targeting anyone specific, but people need to make up thier mind and not say shit. this is fucking recockulous.