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|Current music:||The Past - Grain|
good to be home!
haha hello everyone who reads my journal which is probably not a lot....meh! I'm finally back from Jackson, Wyoming that was just an assload of fun! Well besides the irritability it was fun yeah.......I've gotten closer to my friends and gotten to know some people better which is always fun....and Wyoming shows me just how much I despise Texas lol.......well at least like weather and scenery wise.
I am so fuckin excited cuz SOO many good shows are comin up and one in particular NORMA JEAN!! ahhhhhh! I can't wait I mean people just don't understand......I'm so fuckin passionate about my music it's not even funny. Like when I go to local shows and my fave band is on stage I just zone out and move and crap and yeah. I probably look like I'm going insane or something. It's just really hard to explain. I'm not one of those people that just stand there and bob their heads or headbang a lil ya know? Unless it's a band I never heard or they're an ok band. I have to move and crap. But uhh yeah....back to my trip.....on the road it wasn't that fun I mean on the way back it was but the TOO MANY pit stops wasn't fun but being there it was beautiful I mean mountains on end and trees. ACTUAL TREES not like the shrubs we call trees here lol. And we went horseback riding and white water rafting. And rode through Grand Teton National Park and Yellowstone by the way did you know teton is French for like boob I find that very amusing.
Ok lemme just say that I think I killed my horse because of my fat ass lol not really but my horse kept panting for dear life not to mention that we went up and down a mountain. He farted like 7 times in a row in Liz's face cuz she was RIGHT behind me and he kept stopping to eat and holding up the line. Jenny's horse did that at the beginning and that's why she fell WAY behind...poor Jenny :( I felt really bad for my horse. Even Bobby heard him and he was like "Why is your horse panting?" I was like "CUZ I'M ON HIM!!" lol good times. And my ass was sore after that. I mean I didn't even notice the soreness until I sat on this wood thing on the bed and I jumped up really quick cuz it hurt like shit lol. The white-water rafting kicked ass cuz our guide was a well educated individual not to mention hott w/ his metallic blue toenails and all lol. But he was really talkative and the water was like 55 degrees so it was cold and funny whenever a big wave hit us but yeah it was just good times all around.
And the condo was great I mean the mountains and the Snake River and the private property line was like RIGHT in the backyard of the condo so we saw and heard like random animals. I went running w/ Bobby one night good lord I thought I was gonna die and it was probably like 1 lap around a track maybe not even that. I am so freakin out of shape but I hope to change that soon. And the sky ohhh don't even get me started about the enormous and fuckin gorgeous sky up there.....just wow........no words just wow lol I really hope I get to go back it's something everyone needs to see.
Wow school starts in like 2 weeks.... I am soo not ready for school yet. Not at all.....and registration is Aug. 7 which is this Thursday. ugh! I'm excited and scared cuz it's my LAST year of high school and yeah......it's scary for me cuz I'm gonna be on my own soon and that's like a HUGE step for me seeing as how I've been with my mom only for the last 13 years so yeah major adjustment there. But I'm excited cuz I hope I make new friends and new experiences...meh! I'm weird I know. And I need to work out A LOT more cuz yeah this whole chubby thing isn't workin for me at all...hahaha like it was before? no. But I'm just sick of having a low self-esteem and feeling sorry for myself and shit so I'm gonna lose weight before Halloween but Samm's b-day at the latest which is November 20. I think I can do it. Cuz up in Wyoming I would just sit there lookin at the sky in like 40-50 degree weather and think wow....how good it would be to spend the night under the stars with a guy you really like and who likes you back.....very depressing I know. But yeah I'm SO ready for a change. All I need is for my mom and friends to help me make that change ya know? No diets for me cuz I think diets can bite my ass but I just wanna watch what I eat and exercise everyday.
But yeah I guess I'm gonna go and think about all the wonderful shows comin up YAY! And yeah I'll babble on some more later. Smooches!