|Current mood:|| annoyed|
I dont want to continue with these drum lessons. I just dont like them. I'm really lazy and hate havign it looming over me the entire week. The instructor pays so much attention to detail that we've only been working on technique and not anything new. I just wanted to learn a few casual things on the set. Nothing big because i dont plan on continuign with the drums. Even though the rest of the world wants me to, i dont want to play the drums in any type of band anymore. If I were to play them it would be only for fun. I'm gettign so frustrated with all the people telling me constantly to continue with the drums because im good. Well I;m better at art. And art is what i love more. Way more than i could ever love the drums. Yes, i do like them, yes they are fun. But art is what i'm going to be doing for the rest of my life. I'm sick of having everyone puttign preasure on me to love music. I do love music! I do LIKE to play it! but i dont love to play it. I dont love it enough to practice for hours a day. I want to draw all day and do nothing else. I wish people would pay more attention to what i love and not what they love for me. Everyone makes me feel like im just giving up. I'm not giving up, im not quitting. I'm just spending all my time on somethign that really matters to me.
Yes i'm lazy. but not all the time. Just with things i know are a worthless effort. I've already made up my mind im not going to continue learning the drums. I already know what im going to do with myself and all my time. So why wont people leave me alone and respect my desision!?