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Hello again, blurty!
Here I come to hide from the world my soft underbelly! There may be drama, I haven't thought about what I'm going to write yet except for the awesome stuff, but there may be so cross your fingers!
Things with Kristel are phenomenal and finally being in another relationship is the most euphoric thing I have ever come to realize. She is marginally greater than any of my previous girlfriends and we have only shared a fraction of the time together as with the said priors. The chemistry working between would make Einstein flip out and things couldn't possibly be better on that front.....
BUT
The girl is now moving in three weeks. What in the hell?! I'm pretending not too be too distraught about it but the fact of the matter is the move will break me. We'll be spending as much time together as possible and well, I'll be able to visit her with some frequency since, because of my mother, I am able to fly anywhere in the continental US for free whenever I damn well please but it is still so tremendously taxing on my already stressed out end-of-highschool body. I had a panic attack on Friday and had to go home. Yeah, I suck.
The college front is all right I suppose. Got accepted to UTSA (Austin rejects), Pratt Film Institute in NY ($40,000 a year, no thank you) and Our lady of the Lake(?) whom for all I know are desperate for people so that's a big no. All of this is acceptable I guess but we're pretty poor and my eyes are far too big. I want the world. I want to start a business and I'm gonna' go for it. I must continue to outdo every adventure in life until the day I meet the greatest. I have elected to stay here for this year and take some summer classes and get everything out of the way as fast as possible and obtain the necessary $20,000 for the big time.
Soon, my mom will be moving into a new house after this one is sold and I have no idea what will happen to my dad after the divorce. I try not to talk about it much these days but it's got me pretty depressed. As much as I hate to admit it, yes, I have been having pretty bad stress related problems but it's nothing that nobody else is going through. Fortunately, I have stumbled upon by chance the perfect relationship, a prize some will search for all their lives, a somewhat-set plan for the future, weeded out the lukewarm friends and by first glance may appear to have a handle on life...but UNFORTUNATELY, Kristel is moving, the bigger the prize you go for in life--the bigger the risk, I shouldn't have associated with these people in the first place, and school is kicking my neglecting ass. I don't know many people I can keep 9-hour phone conversations with on a somewhat regular basis.
It's really not that bad though, I just had to complain to get it out. Kristel and I should be fine, we've agreed to go for it and stay together and I know I'm good for it. Financially unstable we may be, I've already got all I need and I'm not bitter towards those with more anymore. I love my life more than some people who are privileged and just plain lucky, and I don't really mind what happens now. It's not that I don't care, it's just that I don't really think much can get me now.
On a sadder note, Canadian Jon is also leaving soon but at least we'll have our trip to Grand Cayman with Jakie Bear next week and a TOP SECRET party for the old canuck.
Things at work are fine. I'm starting to get bored but all is well.
I hope I pass this physics test thing today. I even prayed for it because I'm a nerd...hah. GOD PLEASE GIVE ME WHAT I WANT KTHX. Oh well, no better person you can ask for help I say, so why not?
I've been reading alot lately. I reread Atlas Shrugged, and in one week I read Brave New World, The Corrections, Sex, Drugs and Cocoa Puffs, Fugitives and Refugees, Jesus Among Other Gods and started Inside the Third Reich the other day. Oh, and I read the communist manifesto today.
I guess there really is no drama. Fancy that! I feel bad for you suckers who got it! SUCK IT! NO DRAMA FOR LIFE!
Oh, and Tabitha is pregnant. There's your drama, sorry only like two of you knew who she was. Oh! And what's weird is that Kristel lives in the same apartments as Tabitha...and her apartment has the same layout and model....and Tabitha tried to hook up with Kristels brother...WHILE WE WERE GOING OUT. Whoop!
-Mario out.
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