|Current mood:|| drained|
|Current music:||nothing. i cant hear because my head is pounding..|
give me a feeling.
thats all i want is a valid feeling. i feel nothing but so much at the same time.
i want to be alone.
i want to be with someone.
i want to sleep.
i want to stay awake for the action.
i want to write.
i want to hold it all in.
i want to be quiet.
i want to talk all night.
i want to be noticed.
i want to be invisible.
...i want to feel...
i wish i knew what i needed.
someone to talk to? someone to make me laugh? someone to keep my mind off of myself for once?
i think too much and i need to vent. the problem is its hard to vent when i have no clue whats going on.
this might just be a phase. this happens a lot, i get in a slump and tell myself i will stay in that slump. because i get in that mind frame, i stay in a bad mood for a long time. when one thing gets me down i can only think negatively about everything.
my head aches.
all my "friends" are out having fun but didnt bother to invite me.
i took a shower a couple hours ago but i dont feel clean...i feel dry.
everyone in my house has had the stomache flu and im bound to get it soon. damnit.
i dont want to go to school next year..or ever.
i am emotionally...mentally...physically...spiritually...drained.