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:( oh god!
well, things didnt go well with sam. After i got off the computer, i asked him if he wanted to go 4 a smoke an he was like "oh, so u gonna talk 2 me then?" an i sed "well, i didnt think...u WANTED 2 talk" he didnt say nethin, he just shook his head an got his fags out,brad came 2 an i wished he hadnt coz then i would have been able 2 talk 2 sam about, u no, stuff. So we were walkin and they were doin most of the talkin and i took it that sam was in one of his thoughtful, reclusive moods so u no, he didnt really wanna talk. We got to the smokin spot and sally,gemma and gayface were there, and he was bein well nice to them so i was a bit gutted then really! We didnt talk sept 4 me sayin "u alrite?!" an he nodded. Propa fanny makin me feel this shit! then i.um.yeah, so we went back up 2 media an that was it. I went 2 lunch and saw his sister waiting where we all meet up 4 lunch and ive never REALLY spoken 2 her so i thought id, u no, get 2 know her. We spent all of lunch 2getha and shes a preety heavy girl mann, well safe! we were just chattin general shit bout her bloke, sam, the bloke on saturday and u no all that shit. All we got was propa evils and sam just kept giving us propa STARES. But i wasnt guna stop talkin 2 her just coz HE didnt want us 2, so we had the rest ov lunch havin a wicked convo' coz u no, i felt wicked coz wen i was tellin her bout how we both treated each other she knew EXACTLY wat i was on about, u no, the whole time it was nice 2 have sm one to tell me it was guna b ok, and it means something coming from her because she KNOWS him, u no, not in the same way i do but u no wat i mean, she knows his moods and the way he is with people. So i dunno wat im going to do. Im guna not try anymore, i think thats the best bet. As we were sat there he looked at us both, and we both smiled-not in a nasty"oh lets rub ur face in it" way it was just-u no- a smile! and he goes "haha,well funny" in a really sarcy nasty way so at that point i just thought "well fuck u then!" and it helps 2 write it down coz i havent told anyone the story ov my day yet coz all my m8s r in an art exam except 4 a few ov them but i cant be arsed 2 say it-find it easier 2 write it. Coz i WELL still wanna b m8s, if we cant be best m8s like we were ( which i tink is out ov the picture) then i still wanna b m8s at LEAST! I LOVE THE FUCKER! despite all the hurt and confusion hes caused me-i still love him and i ....god, i just do. And i hate arguing with him./ Usually i provoke arguments with people i dont like coz then i can blow them out and laf at them but with my friends it compleately different. This chair is hurting my arm, each time i type on the right hand side of the keyboard, my arm mooves back and scccccrrrrrrapes the side ov the chair! oww! changing chairs, hang on!
nice one! inabit, prob write sum more in bout,like, 2mins
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