truth with elegance (if_i_could) wrote, @ 2004-12-29 22:18:00

everyone on my msn list is either busy or away so i have resorted to coming here and bitching and moaning.
i feel so disgusted with myself,i haven't been feeling happy for a long while now but i try to put on a happy face even if i feel like crying pretty much every minute of every fucking day.
but i can't cry,the tears just won't come so as well as feeling inadequate,worthless and ugly i also feel like i'm heartless and incapable of expressing emotions.
so i resorted to doing what i do best and i now have 42 lovely fresh cuts on my arm.
it's getting out of control now and i'm scared.
and my blurty is the only 'person' i have to talk to.
fuck me,i sound like a self pitying cow.
that'll be because i am then.
another fault to add to the ever growing list.

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