 | FOLD ME DOWN DEEP, DEEP IN THE HEART OF YOUR SINS ( icryforyou) wrote,
@ 2003-10-15 06:20:00 |
I just can't go to school today. I told my mom and she was like "You can't keep missing so much school but find stay home" but then she said something else and she hung up, and her cell reception was shit so I didn't hear what she said. I don't want to call her back. I was like "Mom I just can't, I don't feel like I even have the strength to walk out the door." and she was like "Well, that's to be expected you're upset!" And then she was rambling about how I missed an exam yesterday. Yeah. An exam in computers. Which, I might add, is one of the few classes I am acing. Which I will be able to make up. I just feel really bad. I have a pottery club meeting today. Yes you fools, pottery. I feel like that guy in Reno with the dildo on his head. "DON'T JUDGE ME YOU DON'TKNOW ME!" hahaha. Yeah anyway. Oh well. I probably wouldn't like the people anyway. Besides, it's a waste of money. NEWSFLASH: my mom just called back. She can't go five minute without dieing frlom guilt when she hangs up on me. She doesn't want me to stay home, and I don't want to stay home, I don't want to miss school anymore than I already have but I feel like I can physically and emotionally not handle it. I know you all think I'm overreacting but this was pretty much everything I had going for me. Anyway she was like "You're going to miss pottery" "I know Mom, but there probably won't be anyone I like there anyway." "Well it would be a good chance to finally make friends." I didn't say anything. People don't want to be my friend. I wish there was some way to bash that into her thick head. I'm a nice person, I am, but I refuse to change for anyone that doesn't like me the way I am. I won't get into that because I'll rant on it forever. *sigh* WHY DID THAT HAVE TO BE SO IMPORTANT TO ME? I wish I hadn't even thought that I could get in. God I'm so stupid. STUPID. I don't know why it was so important to me but I wanted it, and I wanted it more than I have wanted anything in my entire life. Oh well. I have to have a "confrence" with the guidance councelor, the shrink I took the test from, and the class placements lady, so I'll find out how stupid I am tomorrow. I wonder what my IQ is? It had to be atleast 135 I think. I mean, if my IQ is like 125 I won't feel so bad. But if it's like 99 I'm going to shoot myself in the face. Stupid online IQ tests. Those things are nothing like the real IQ tests. DAMN IQ TEST WHY'D YOU HAVE TO BE SO HARD!?!? GOD DAMMIT AMY WHY COULDN'T YOU REMEMBER WHO CHARLES DARWIN WAS?!? That's probably why I didn't get in. God damn you forever with you and your survival of the fittest. That must have been a sign. "SURVIVAL OF THE FITtEST AMY, OOPS YOU CAN'T REMEMBER WHO CHARLES DARWIN IS, SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST LOOKS LIKE YOU'RE NOT TOO FIT." Now I'm just babbling. I have a tendancy to do that. But I know I'm smart. I know a lot of things other people don't know, especially for my age. I would say my weak point is balancing scientific equations. Call me a dumbass but I just do not get that shit. It doesn't make sense to me. Damn scientific equations. I wonder what I got on my bio exam anyhow? I probably failed. BECAUSE I'M A FAILURE AT EVERYTHING. Maybe I wouldn't be taking this so hard if I weren't PMSing like a big cow but I am. So sue me. Sue sew whatever. How do you spell that? Yeah see? I'm a dumbass.
On one part of the IQ test there were these five different pictures that made up an entire event of different pictures, and one of them -the hardest one- had only one detail to tell what order it went in, and that was the shadow of the house. FIRST OF ALL, HALF OF THE PEOPLE I KNOW WOULDN'T EVEN THINK OF ARRANGING THE PICTURES BY THE SHADOW. Anyway that's not the point, I was trying to get that whole sunset shadow and sunrise shadow thing in order when the fucking shrinks cell rang, so she made me "step out" of her office and I had to sit on this couch, and then she called me back in and I wasn't finished arranging my picture! But she had cleared it away, as if I was done. I absolutely bombed the math part of the test. Math has never been and will enver ve my strong point.
The first part of the test was easy, there was this column of numbers and each number had a sign next to it, and below that was this huge box with all these other boxes in it, and from left to right I had to look at the sign in the box and name the number it stood for. She said I did really good on that part. It was harder than it sounds, believe me. For instance:
1* 2- 3/ 4+ 5) 6! 7= 8^ 9#
*/-///*-+))=)^=^#)!*/*+
But there were way more signs that that^^^and as fast as you can you have to name what number goes with the sign. SEE!? CONFUSING.
They are supposed to call my Mom today. I guess I'll find out why I'm so stupid.
Damn this. I've written way too much. Three dollars says that no one will comment because we're all lazy and don't like to read long things.
Like math word problems. No one ever does them because they require reading. Lazy ass hoes. Half of the time they're just babbling, and then they tell you straight up what they want you to solve. Not like in third and second grade when it was like "BILL IS IN BETWEEN BOBBY AND BOBBY IS BEHIND BILLY WITH AN ERECT PENIS WHILE SARAH IS KNEELING IN FRONT OF JOSH AND JOSH'S ASS IS IN FRONT OF BILLY'S PROTRUDING JOHN WHILE ELIZABETHS PROTRUDING JOHN FACES NORTHWEST WHAT DIRECTION IS EMILY FACING?" Now that shit is confusing. I don't even think there's an answer though. hahahaha WHOEVER CAN SOLVE THAT GETS A COOKIE. I'll send it to you in the mail with a large amount of anthrax sprinkled on it to make it look like it's that awesome donut powder, and then I'll inject some cyanide into it. MMMM YUM I <3 CYANIDE. You know that shit is supposed to smell like burnt almonds when it's in your stomach, but only like 40% of people in the entire world can actually smell it? Weird.
DISCLAIMER: The massive amount of typos in this entry in no way reflect the stupidity I truly have claim to, but the hurried manner that I was typing.
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