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Im worried........
its about Nick. i think hes trying to avoid me or something...everytime i called today he wasnt home. and yesterday night, he said he would call me back and he didnt. ive been calling ever since about 6:20 and its almost 8. this is kinda making me mad. i wonder if he really is ignoring me or is just gone. well i called his line and his little brother picked up and said he wasnt there and he was coming home from the lake. ok i dont know if i should believe this or not....i dont want Nick and me to break up...just the thought of it tears me appart...well i was jsut talking to travis and he said "maybe he really is gone and u just think hes there" that might be true but i dont know. RIP, SLIP, BRUSH, AHH!! man thats a cool commercial lol ive tried those b4 they are cool. well at 8:30 im going to call and if he doesnt awnser im just...going to...cry. thats it. im just gonna cry. because i miss him so much im willing to do anything to see him again before friday. i know thats pathetic of me for saying that but oh well i dont care what you think. ok in 15 mins i can call. i want it to be 8:30 because if he awnsers im gonna ask whats up with this. I dont want himt o break up with me if thats what gonna happen. and you know what else is bothering me? THAT ALL THESE STUPID RAPPERS HAVE PEOPLE PLAYING GUITARS IN THEIR MUSIC VIDEOS!!!!! GOD THAT P!SSES ME OFF!!! ok see isnt that stupid? i hate that it annoys me. Guitars are for rockers. and blues and jazz ANYTHING BUT RAP!!!! i mean come on, seriously man, who wants to hear rap with guitar in it? I SURE AS H3LL DONT BECAUSE I DONT LISTEN TO RAP!!! ok well you know what? i need to take a bath or something...but i will take it later or something. DUDE 50 CENT JUST SAID "DUDE" IN HIS SONG!!! NOOOOOOO!!!!!! NOW THEY ARE TAKING OUR WORDS?????????? WHAT NEXT!!!! ARE THEY GOING TO START WEARING BLACK AND EYELINER AND SKATEBOARD TOO??? WHAT IS THIS WORLD COMING TOO?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?! i dont know bu everything is bothering me. i jsut wanna crawl up into a ball and cry myself to sleep. i wish i didnt have to go to school tomorrow. i dont feel like it. i dont feel good. i hate everyhing. i hate everyone. well almost everyone. now my foot is asleep...this is just peachy keen isnt it? god isnt my life just SO wonderful?well my foot is numb and i cant feel it. 5 more mins...i want to find out whats going on with him. this is driving me insane...i dont know what to do. one miniute to go.......time to call! NEVERMIND MY FRICKIN MOM HAD TO GET ON AND CALL MY STUPID AUNT WHICH MEANS THEY WILL BE ON FOR FRICKIN EVER...ok dude now im crying...this is ticking me off so much right now i could punch a whole in the wall. ok now they are off so im going to call....GOD HES NOT AWNSERING!!!! i dont know what im going to do...im going to kill myself. not really but i want to. im gonna go cry myself to sleep now. later
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