Nikki Taylor (i_stilltasteyou) wrote, @ 2007-01-01 22:50:00

Tell me that i'm alright.. and everything is fine.
Just lie to me, sweetly.

In a perfect world I imagined, I'd go to cornell with paul and everything would be like this last summer. I'd be successful and happy, and in ithaca. Paul got accepted. My application is being processed. I just don't think I can have that perfect life, for some reason I dont think that God has it in his plans to give me something that amazing. That.. perfect.


The future freaks me out.


I'm hyperventilating, and I feel like i'm going to be sick. i can't sleep. nothing compares to this. this is everything to me. Its horrible that so much rides on so little. the way i'm protrayed on paper determines my life..forever.

all of this daily..in and out passing the time bull shit. its worthless its pointless. i dont want to live for the moment. i want to live for ..ever.

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