You don't have the slightest clue as to what you do to me, do you?
You make me shake, inside and out. Uncontrollably. Anytime I think about going to see you, our rendezvous. You've got me sneaking around and bending over backwards. I was never this person, never thought I'd be like this. It's anti what I thought I'd become. It's all your fault.. and you're oblivious.
On the drive over to see you, at 3:14 this morning I couldnt even keep a steady foot on the pedle. Could you not pick up the shaking in my voice when you called and we talked for an hour while I debated on whether I could really risk slipping out the back door & out of town, without being caught? I wouldn't have done that for anyone, not even my closest friends, but you.
I break my neck looking for you, and I catch myself day dreaming of what we could be if only you'd let me make you happy. You acknowledging me, even if its negatively, still makes me smile from ear to ear. I'm on the verge of tears just thinking about it, because I know what I am, I know how it is. You've got me tangled up, you know that right? I can't move on and proceed with my romantic happiness because every time I think you're done with me, and I think I'm long overdue to move on.. you call. I answer, I call back, I always do. I ALWAYS DO. "Well if you don't want to come see me, I mean I get it..it's your call." But you know damn well what I want, and that you've got me right where you want me.
I know it's wrong, all of it is wrong. Legally, morally, it's fucked up. I'm a honey dip, I'm falling in love with you, and there were never the right conditions for love. You didn't set me up, but you consciously tip toed around all the little traps knowing I'd get snared. I'm stuck, thank you. Thank you for dragging me on and killing me like this. You have no idea, I know you think I'm fine with this,and that this is nothing more to me than it is to you. You're so terribly wrong. "You don't know what to do with me. I don't know what to do with you. Cause you don't know what you do to me."
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