|Current music:||Dark side of the moon / Pink Floyd|
AAAAArghhhhhhh (hits self on head with blunt object)
I wonder if I made myself clear in the previous email. This morning, I am having, perhaps, some of the effects I described.
I am finding it very hard to concentrate on any one thing.
When I look at a memo (here at work they run to 20 pages) the words blur and turn into other things, like gothic print. If I focus hard to read them, they don't make sense. Words turn into other words. Things are misspelled, but on second glance, are spelled correctly. If I really, really try to read them I can, but progress is very slow, with me having to read things 2-5 times.
Also, I am struggling to read and understand, so have little cognitive room left for prioritizing, reacting, judging, evaluating, ... all of which are the important part of my job.
I have had this problem ever since I can remember, but it is worse this spring. Maybe I'm just noticing for the first time, maybe it's worse.
So as I described, this is a little bit like what happens in the shopping mall, with sensory distortions, but different. Question: how to cope and keep everything together?