|Current mood:|| hopeful|
Well here I am readers of mine. Work is going good. I love my job so much. There is so much to learn and do. I recommend Pharmacy Tech for anyone who loves to learn and be busy. Its exciting. :) I've learned a lot today.
As for everything else in my life... well... the subject says it all. I'm still waiting to get a car. Wish I could get one soon. I hate depending on other people. And waiting for love, marriage and children.
I don't really have anyone else to talk to about all this. Everyone keeps telling me it will happen I'm still young. What does age have to do with it? It's not like I'm 16 wanting all that. I'm 24 going to be 25 in April. And everyone around me is engaged, getting married, pregnant or had a baby. And here I am just starting a good career.
And the the one guy I love with all my heart is a state away from me. And then there is the fact that no one in my family really approves of him. But then again they only see one side of him I see both. He isn't a bad guy. Sure he doesn't treat me great every day but I'm not that great to him sometimes. But he does do things for me. People just dont always see it.
But I've realized one thing today. I worry to much about what everyone else thinks but not me. So I've decided that starting today I'm worrying about me. And if I end up with Mike and no one likes it oh well. I love him. And as long as I am happy they should be happy. It's my life and for once I'm going to do what I want not what everyone wants from me or what they want me to do. It's going to be all about me.
So I contiune to wait for the car, the engagement ring, the wedding, and the babies... oh and had the apartment, townhome or house.
But Keep Smiling and Follow Your Heart and do what makes you happy. You only live once and you can't go back to redo things. So enjoy it while you can. :)