Last time I wrote in this thing, I was really upset, and the past days haven't done anything to help.
Tsuzuki went missing. I couldn't get a trace of him no matter how hard I concentrated. It was like he'd completely disappeared. Konoe knew where he was, but all he would tell me was that Tsuzuki would be coming back soon. The morning of the third day I couldn't take it anymore. Something was really really wrong. Tsuzuki wouldn't just leave like that without telling me, and in his emotional state....
So I read Konoe's mind. I don't know yet what the punishment will be, but the only thing I regret is not doing that sooner. He'd let them take Tsuzuki into a lab to be pulled apart and poked at like some defective machine!
When I got into the lab, he was strapped to a table, sliced up, bruised, and bleeding. It looked more like something I'd expect of Muraki than other shinigami. They forced me out, and by the time I had gotten back in they were done with him. They let him get dressed and leave, leaning on me.
We went home and just sat on the couch so I could heal him faster. It was all I was able to do for him, but that's how it is with me, isn't it? Always too little too late, especially when it comes to him. I want to be stronger. I want to be able to help him, to protect him. I want to be there for him like the partner I'm supposed to be, rather than the idiot I was, sitting around for two days, trusting what I was told rather than my gut.
The most unbelieveable thing about all this was that he didn't hold it against me for not coming sooner. How does a man who's been through so much stay so forgiving? He doesn't make sense.
Now, though, I understand better why he hates Enma and why he was less-than-thrilled when I told him that I had volunteered to split his debt. I didn't know how bad things could get here. I didn't look past what I saw. That was stupidity on my part. Of course things could get bad. This isn't heaven. Just like earth, there are good people and bad people.
It's unnerving to think that the...being...in charge could do something so inhuman. Perhaps Tsuzuki and I could stage a coup....
At any rate, Tatsumi's arranged a vacation for us all, so maybe Tsuzuki will have some time to get better. I'll have to ask Hijiri to play for him later. Maybe he knows a tune that can help people forget.
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