the sound. . . of silence. . .
My mind is still in a mess. I keep thinking about everything that's happened. I keep thinking about what I should have done to have not ended up like this with this whole mess but everything seems to turn out wrong. I know I shouldn't dwell on the past but I just can't help it. Watari is so down it's beginning to worry me. He keeps getting frustrated over this project he's working with in his room. I keep trying to get him to get some rest and sometimes it works but most of the time it doesn't. I just wish he would get some more sleep to catch up on the sleep he's lost. I mean this is like a non payed vacation so he should at least rest up. I have gotten him to sleep the last two nights thankfully, but they haven't been for long times. He'll atleast get some sleep when I make him by laying there with him. I think his dreams are troubling him cause he keeps embracing me around my waist while nuzzling up close to me. I don't mind it though. I like to be close to him. . . I feel that safe warmth when I'm near him even more then when I was with Tsuzuki. . . . Tsuzuki came by the other day. He came by to apoligize for Hisoka. I was actually not surprised that he came by. I know that Hisoka would never do this and I guess Tsuzuki felt like he should do it. I wish he didn't though. It just made him feel sad from what I could see. I don't like to see Tsuzuki sad. But he offered us money to pay for our rent. I gave it back to him and both Watari and I said we would be alright. He left and I think he stopped by the landlady's office and gave her the money. I can't figure out how he has 300 bucks considering. . . but I went by her office today to ask about that and she's like well only 100 due and told me that a man had stopped by and dropped off the money. I'm going to pay back Tsuzuki for that. That was his sweets fund I think. but it'll have to wait till both Watari and I get paid. I'm finished with the work I brought home and now I can't figure what to do with myself. Maybe I'll clean. This apartment looks fine but it'll be something to do.
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