|Current mood:||pesimistic, reflective|
|Current music:||stairway to heaven-led zeppelin|
a little something about me
dont think im depressed or anything right now...because i dont believe that I am, but for a very long time I have known for a fact that nobody out there truly understands me, and it'll continue to be difficult to find someone who comes even close. I dont like telling people about things liek this cuz i dont want to look like im actually some sad person looking for attention...because Im not. I just want to let some people out there know the message b/c it will come to use. Sometimes it makes me feel kind of good knowing nobody understands, because I always know I am on my own and I dont have to depend on anyone and that I like the idea of people not knowing much about my past and whats really going on inside me. Only sometimes though. Other times I strongly do wish that one person out there really understood me, somebody i could really talk to. And believe me I have talked to a lot of people, but there is so much to comprehend. So much. The only person I can say is closer to relating to me than anyone else, is ami. But I'm still alone. And I will be for a long time, cuz I've been searching not that hard, but so far there isnt anyone even close. Ill be okay though. Im okay. ...or maybe im just saying that.