|Current mood:|| listless|
I don't like this any more.
I feel uncomfortable here in my insanity.
I can't quite shake the echo that gets louder with time spent in quiet. My mind races from thought to thought and I just observe what is happening. I am so disconnected these days. I think I have actually opened my mouth to say something and then I realize that I haven't said anything at all. I do a lot of talking in my head.
I've been having these little breaks from reality that can be quite refreshing, but I suppose I should find troubling. I have had a break from the relentless depression though, it has been replaced with this rather insane agitated state where I spin around in my chair and come very close to flying off the handle. I have a lot of impulses to do things, but so far I they haven't really manifested into actions. I am rather quiet and still on the outside. Hence the disconnection.
I don't remember what comes after this feeling. Things cycle predictably but I am at a loss for the next state.