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| Current music: | My Favorite Highway- Bigger Then Love |
Life And Love.
This woman came through my line today at work and she looked so sad. You can see in her face that she wanted to give up. I asked her what was wrong. She told me she just had a divorce and this was her second marriage and she was hoping this one would last forever. I felt so bad for her. She doesn't believe in love of any kind anymore. The look in her eyes was heartbreaking. So i told her that there's still time. Maybe she'll find "the one". She said, honey, i'm 65. There's not much more time for me. I told her that love finds you in the oddest of times and to never give up. Someone is out there for her. She smiled at me. And at that moment, there was light in her eyes. Like her hope was renewed. All because of what I said. It made me realize that i still have time to find love. I'm not 65, i haven't been through two divorces. I mean, yes, i've been through a lot of shit. But i still have a lot to live for and a lot to look forward to. But i can't help but think what if i lied to her? All that hope is gone. Her eyes will be dead again.
I didn't have anyone to cuddle with or kiss last night on new years eve. But maybe next year i will. I'll still have hope. My new years resolution is to find love. And in finding it, prove it's existance to myself. And pray to god that i don't end up as miserable as my sister and her fiance. Who are fighting as I type.
Blueberry was in the hospital because he had meningitis. He lost his phone.
There's this boy i've been talking to. But he plays hot and cold. Like one day he'll be all flirty and the next it's like nothing. So i dunno. I want something to happen. I'm not sure why. I just have a good feeling about it. He plays hockey. One day he said i was like his twin. One of my best friends kinda introduced us. He seems like a funny kid. He has this weird way of making me laugh. He finds my clumsiness cute. I just have no idea. I wish these things weren't so difficult.
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