|Current mood:|| depressed|
2.) I hate myself. Physically. I hate everything about me. I'm short. I'm pale. And I have absolutely no figure whatsoever. My hair is a rat's nest. And my face doesn't look much better.
All a guy wants to see is a tall blonde with DD breasts. And that's not me. I feel ugly. I am ugly. I could never catch a guy's attention. I'm not saying that that's all I care about, but a part of me does. A part of me sometimes wants my boyfriend to be able to look at me and say, "Wow, I have the prettiest girlfriend." Or for a guy that passes me to think, "Wow, she's hot."
Everyone knows the stereotype women that guys drool over. Jessica Simpson, Britney Spears, Pamela Anderson. They're all the same. And they're all the total opposite of me...
I feel that a person couldn't possibly like me for who I am inside, because of the way I look outside.....
I can't explain this one as well as the last. It's just... I want to be pretty. I want to be considered pretty. Or I don't want to care so fucking much...
I know I sound shallow and superficial right now, but I would be lying through my teeth if I were to deny these feelings. There's more to me than this, but it just so happens that this is what makes me feel bad inside...