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You'll change your mind come Monday, and turn your back on me.
Was I right in surrendering?
My pride said 'fine, nice knowing you...douche bag!' and flipped him off while I walked away, but some other part that I have grown unaccustomed to said something else quite different.
It wanted me to turn around and fight (and not physically for a change)
I might have said something to that effect...but I refuse to read the messages. I refuse to even delete them because that means I will have to look at them even fleetingly.
I hate being open with my feelings. It makes me vunerable and that makes me feel silly and rather nauseous.
I am really messed up.
I need to untangle myself to a certain year and straighten everything out from there.
Now...How does one go about doing that?
I guess just keep these thoughts in mind the next time I meet another person. and swallow all the anxiety down before I become Unbearable Emotionally Abusive Tracy.
*le sigh*
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