|Current mood:|| sad|
So this is where I come when I feel the need to bitch without creating drama/livejournal comments.
Alright. So apparently I am absolutely hiddeous, disgusting, and just plain terrible. Why else wouldn't I have found "the one" yet? Fuck the independent girl cover, I really am pretty damn lonely. I just want someone, ya know? I look around and there's all these happy couples and I think "what does that girl have that I don't?". I know I'm not the prettiest, or the thinnest, or have the biggest books, or have the best personality, but seriously, do they? I've started to think that I overestimate myself, even though I rank extremely low in the self confidence department. Maybe I don't realize that I'm actually a massive, ugly heap of disgust that's obnoxious and horrible to be around. Maybe that's why I haven't had a relationship in over a year. Maybe that's why my former relationships (all whopping 2 of them) have ended so soon (even though I ended them...) and why I've never allowed them to be serious. I'll get hurt. I'm just not worth it to anyone.