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Selfish people anger me!
Today i feel very anoyed, and frusterated with everyone in my life. I still have my head ache, going on almost 6 days now and the damn thing wont subside, i find out today that my headaches might be my eyes, so i might need glasses, something that i hoped i would never have to have, but i think that time is comming, so i had to make an eye opointment this morning, yay i get to be poked in the eyes for an hour. Mary has been on my tail all day about money, and about her g/f problems, not that i dont want to be there for her to talk to, but when mary gets upset about something and i try to give her advice on something she becomes a royal ass bitch, and not only that i can barely think with this headache to be able to help someone. Boo has gottan into everything today, she must sence that momie isnt feeling well cuz she picks today to make a mess every half hour. I clean up one mess she makes, and then she goes and makes another. AAAAAHHHHHH!! So erlier i tried to lay down and close my eyes and get some rest so i could give my eyes a rest cuz i had a shooting pain through my eye, i get laid down for 10 mins and mary comes running in with a damn phone. YAY its carrie and shery, OMG SON i swear those 2 are like the most disorgonized people. Well to make a long story short shery lives in canada, carrie is from us, carrie is my ex who i still care a lot about and always will shes my best friend and i always try to help her out if can. Carrie is in canada with sherry at the moment but has no way of working and making money. Shery wants to leave where she is at and come here cuz shes not happy where shes at, she wants carrie to come but cant afford to bring her, so they call to ask me if i could pay to fly carrie out here, and sherry says "if we cant find money for carrie to come then i have to send her back home". AHHHH ok thats the last thing i want to happen to carrie, is for her to go back home, cuz when carrie is in her home town she goes crazy, she drinks constantly and does drugs and stupid things, she has to stay with an abusive family, and well for carrie to go back just isnt the right thing for carrie, shes happier and much better off where shes at now with sherry, and i would hate to see her have to go back. So that totaly puts me in a sticky spot and i dont know what the fuck to do. i can pay for carrie to come here and know she will be safe but then that leaves me flat broke for 2 weeks, or i can let carrie go back home to an abusive situation. So what do i do, i tell sherry that if she can pay for half i will pay for the other half, sherry selfishly says "no i cant do that cuz carrie needs to suport herself and i cant supourt her anymore" lol AAAHHHH ok sherry expects me to suport carrie i guess, if carrie needs to suport herself then why is sherry comming to me for money for carrie to get out here. well i got really pissed off and hollerd at sherry for that and now sherry is pissed off at me now, and well im just all fucked up and dont know what to do. I will feel so horible if carrie has be sent back, but then again i cant put my family in jepordy either, ok so im torn between my best friend and my family. so that didnt make my day go very swell. Now i just feel like total shit. On a lighter note only 6 more days and i get to see Erin YAY!!!!!! YUUUMMM!! lol anyways GGGGGGRRRRRR PEACE
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