|Current mood:|| frustrated|
|Current music:||Somewhere Over the Rainbow, Eva Cassidy style...its great|
Frustrated with this
I am grounded. My parents are so absurd. Whats the point? I think they just like trapping me in here, they don't like my friends, except britt, and, so, they use anything they can to keep me locked in. Maybe they like the controll - they dont have it when i'm at school, so they like to take advantage of it when i'm home. I don't know. Who gets grounded for not showing their unconditional love through actions such as cleaning up everyone elses messes without being asked, isn't that stupid? He said some really really hurtful things to me, like, wishing i never came home. And that hes dissapointed in the person i have become. Then he told me to get out of his sight and slammed the door behind me so hard that the house shook. That was a very hard very distraught very suicidal night. It was not fun, but I'm better now. I don't know how I got to this from being mad about being grounded, but i guess it needed to come out. I hate being here so much, i would pay someone with my life to come kidnap me and get me out. Maybe i am just as selfish as he says i am, but i like to think i'm not. I have always thought i was a pretty decent person who would do pretty much everything she was asked to do for anyone who asked her. I am a good friend, and I'm a good sister, but i guess i fail miserably in the daughter category. Oh well, I can't win for loosin.