|Current mood:|| distressed|
i am so bored. i have done nothing all day that amounts to anything at all. this is the definittion of bored. I would give anything for something to do , i'm not used to this. I'm used to at least having something to study, or something to work on, or someone to work on. I just have nothing. I've read so many books, that now they all look and sound the same, so they bore me. everything bores me. i try to practice, but i can't because nothing sounds like it sposed to. The sounds that come out of my mouth have gone so far downhill since the semester ended, it amazes me. Maybe i am just hindered like britt and chaz said. Maybe just being home bumms me out and makes me not be able to do anything productive. Its probly because i have to close myself up so much so that my family can't really get to me and get me completely down. And when i'm closed, nothing works right. I've already had one major melt down yesterday, and i don't want to have another one. So i have to stay closed up. Well, i guess that means i will just stay bored and useless. Oh well.