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WHY CANT I SLEEP!!!?
My doctor told me that its unhealthy to lay in bed awake for over a half hour and to go to bed when I'm tired. The problem is, I'm always tired but can never sleep. Right now I'm waiting for the pills to take hold.
Drug induced sleep, strange but this is the only way I can rest at all. The dreams are great though, I mean they are really fucked up, its like a drug trip in your sleep. Every time I sleep due to these pills, I get these dreams, maybe its a side affect.
I have so much shit to do and I just dont do it. I'm such a fuck up.
So many pills these days, birth control, sleeping pills, pills to make you shit, pills to stop shit, pain pills, pills to take you away from your shitty life, maybe one day they'll make a pill that will make me not hate myself, who knows. When do we cross the line of cheating nature.