|Current mood:|| depressed|
|Current music:||Debussy- Clair de lune|
I think I've forgotten. Acting like well...a person in public has gotten even more difficult for me. My mom was talking to me today, asking why I never leave the house, and talking about the 'many friends' I have. She has actually made herself believe that I have friends that accept me, and actually want to talk to me outside of school. I did have one for a little while, Katie. But I think she got tired of putting up with me. I didn't have the heart to tell her she was my only friend. I thought it would scare her away. I went to AWA today. it was really good. I asked Katie to go, but she said she couldn't. She IMed me later and told me that she actually went, I signed off. There were so many people there. I saw at least three Inu-yashas and a lot of characters from Sailor Moon, Cowboy Bebop, and random animes. I felt out of place there too. It was really uncomfortable, because it was so crowded. I'm so tired of being alone and not being able to find people that actually, truely want to be around me.