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i deleted my lj, so im going to write in here from now on when i need to.
and for anyone who wanted to know why i deleted it, it was because lately it ended up making me feel awful, instead of better. when i read everyone's entries, i felt like i was missing out on life. i know that sounds stupid, and i know that i dont have a bad life...but man.. for instance, when i hear certain songs, they make me sad even though the lyrics are happy. i guess i just start to think about how i hope that life doesnt pass me by, and i hope that ill look back on my life and be relatively satisfied.
but yeah.
ive been feeling really depressed lately. lots of people who i used to consider my friends, arent. that hurts me more than anything. people change so much, and most of the time, its not a good change. its fucking depressing. ive lost touch with so many people...
and i know ill lose touch with even more after i leave. i told glenn how i was feeling and he said something like "dont worry about keeping in touch with friends from home, the ones who are your real friends will want to keep in touch, so it wont be a probem." thats both comforting and scary. who knows what will happen.
i was looking on the net today about my button problem. apparently its called koumpounophobia. surprisingly, a lot of people have it. i was reading on a couple threads in forums, and some people have it a lot worse than i do. its kinda comforting that im not the only one who doesnt like buttons. ha.
thats it for now.
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