| Current mood: | scared |
| Current music: | matt nathanson // pretty the world |
Look at me here, I am such a baby..
I always tell EVERYONE to get over themselves, and do the things they are afraid to do.. And here I sit, the phone in my hand, and his number in my head.... NOT calling him. I am scared. lol.. I hate myself for not having the courage to dial his number.. Because I want to hear his voice. I want to hear him tell me I'm beautiful.. Because I actually believe him when he tells me it.
I am beating myself up over this. I sat on the couch last night and just thought.. "What if I don't call him? What if I don't make the move..? He might make his move, and move on." I don't like the thought of that.. But I couldn't get it out of my head last night.. And you know what.. ? I STILL haven't called him. I have been telling myself ever since I woke up, that I would call him at like 5:00 or something.. But now I am thinking 5:00 is too early.
Arg, I hate this. It just makes me more crazy.. Like I need to be crazier. Sheesh..
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