| Current mood: |  depressed |
| Current music: | ~Don't Remember By:Limp Bizkit~ |
I am a big joke
I am so depressed, i know that joe and i arent together, but i really with we were. He has had the crush on this one girl that he works with before we strated to date. he has alwasy flirted with her and what not and then he met me and then we dated for a while, not we arent together he has started to flirt with her again. I dont get why he didnt just try to get with her and why he got with me. Why does anyone want me? I would never want to date me if i was a guy. I am worthless.I am a no good piece of shit. I hate this. If he gets with her i think that we would not be friends anymore, cuz he will have no time to talk to me and if i do see him then i would jut cry cuz i know that i cant have him and kiss him or anything. I jut want to die. I mean there is no one out there for me. I know everyone says there is someone out there for everone, but not me. No one is out there for me. NO ONE LIKES ME. I DONT EVEN LIKE MYSELF SO IF I DONT LIKE MYSELF NO ONE WOULD LIKE ME. I have something that i have to confess. I often thought of suicide when i was about age 10-18 on and off. I havent thought about it lately, and i never want to cuz i think the next time i do i will acually do something. Joe wants me to move out of my house and move with him and his roomates, but just cant live with him knowing that i am not with him. And plus there is noroom for me there. they have a 3 bedroom house and 4 ppl liveing there already so yeah. i just need out of here. I have no where else to go either. I just need out of here and now. but i have no car so i have to wait till i get a car to move out. Anyways i suck that that is all there is too it.
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