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This is a running list of topics to be discussed either here or on Xanga whenever I get the opportunity. OLDER: - Rebellion drive overload: "don't tell me how to live" applied without any discernment or sense; dangerous. (perceiving everything as "orders"? Ties into perfection overdrive) - Old "safety" clinging is incongruous; overcome - Still lack of communication - Orange level suppression? (DREAM WORLD) - USE PSYCH CLASS TO OUR ADVANTAGE (extinction threat; key to make everything internally motivated) - Marik God Tier? - As within, so without - Empathy block = "walls" need to go down; lingering "keep up appearances" program needs shutdown - MANIFESTATION (also utilize to overcome first two) - Wanderlust = feeling caged, need to break out of routine + "confinement," even if self-inflicted - Bigger picture mindset (invisibility); part of stories you never read, body is gestalt being, etc. - Gender duality troubles resurfacing temporarily from orange/flame buildup. I am a female man, NOT a male woman. PLEASE find stable ground. STOP JUDGING. - Oversensitivity? Caused by PROJECTION/ REFLECTION. Sit down and find out WHAT this is showing me. - Unidentified voices throwing me off; concerned. PRAY MORE. Also Laurie trumps them every time. <3 - Need to sleep/ meditate; also affecting schedule. "3D" life feels pointless, orange conflict becomes LOUD - Moving? VERY broad topic. STOP THINKING NEGATIVELY. - "Childhood" pull? Glitter, Digimon, fairy princesses. Embody that sweetness! - Try playing Nier again if you can work up the motivation/ time. It might have some more inspiration or pointers, concerning its past. NEWER: - Spiritual hunger = huge Orange emphasis, Chaos connection, energy flow problems AGAIN (in vs out). Still not fixed; unsettling lack of "motivation?" - Concerning previous: heavy creativity block? Unwanted! Frustrating, feels almost "inflicted;" need to tread carefully? HUGE breaks once I force a start though, and potential has skyrocketed. - "Green" threat from Melody's dream? MIGHT have to reassign Natalie. Celebi concern?? TAR? - The Blood Lotus Cathedral still feels significant; check symbolism? - GOD TIERS? Xenophon especially, in light of previous point - 3D to 5D trouble; there's a lot to overcome and I'm unsure just what is being healed here? - Time is both "speeding up" AND OVER. Feels weird. Playing havoc on "daily life" concerns; feel "empty" - Disconnective feeling is back. Definitely ties back into Jan-Mar. POSSIBLY "unpausing" spirit growth?? - Troubles with writing concerning 3D? Loss of interest in conflict, competition, etc. Feeling "lost." Total freeze on some series as a result - Leader drive. "Start talking" and will find words. Unsure on current relevance though? Old lessons feel expired. Also "St Francis/ birds" paradox from Island - Void vs Light again; I DID see a warning on GFP I think. Ego dissolution being hijacked BY the ego?? - Other "odd" sensations... not physically hungry but eating nonstop, very cold, "joy" from winter thought, need to travel/ be "distant" - Tumblr God Tier switch from Hope to Blood; ties into current "rewrite" of moral code, very confusing and existential. - Emotional deadening? Finding it hard to "feel" much, at least genuinely and consciously. Ties into a LOT. - I miss Chaos so damned much it's tearing me apart, to reiterate the first point. But I keep avoiding him. Why?? Post a comment in response: |
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