|Current mood:|| happy|
sincerly sorry, lol..
ooppss.. well its been a while!! he he.. infact its been bloody aggiiisss...
i have my results :-D... i got 4 B's and 6 C's.. i woz well chuffed, i'm in 6th form now.. doing: biology, psychology, r.s and p.e.. should be good.. with all the people i like.. apart from a few exceptions .. lol
lots of things have happened.. i will start with results day :-).. --->
so, thursday 21st: went into school with sarah t to get my results, (had to sneak stacey peapods out for her as she couldn't get into school, he he).. saw everyone there which woz cool, the obviously clever people were everywhere.. lol, couldn't get away from them all.. stayed with fred for abit.. he didn't open his, lol. then i came home and got *congratulated*.. lol --> very happy that day :-)
friday: i honestly can not remember wot the hell i did on friday daytime.. he he, too long ago now. i went round to stacey p's at about 4ish i think.. and rung fred arranged saturday night.. :-) fridat night well, it woz jims BBQ.. bless him, he'd make it all look pretty with lights etc.. it woz really cool, --> jim, dan, luke, luke, rob, olly d, dean, matt, reis, robbie, moi, stacey p, linzi b, sarah t, terri.. uumm, jodie, isabel... and i think thats it, a few left early.. to go elsewhere.. but it woz a really cool night.. got slightly drunk.. (stopped at stacey peapods tho :-D) --> copped ''barney'' (LOL) a few times, which woz cool.. went back to stacey p's.. txtin' barney which again woz really cool.. and i didn't think about fred at all while i woz there.. so that woz a very good night.
saturday: woke up at stacey p's.. had a wicked day there.. then went back to mine when stace went to work.. sorted out the house .. as fred and ginger (lol) were coming over.. bringing drink and staying the night.. as my family had gone on holiday without me.. lol.
so.. they came at about 8.20 ish.. it woz really really cool, we just listened to music and sat outside drinking beer :-D we talked about everything and anything.. litterally, the conversation woz wide... but we got on really well.. one point woz very strange, he played this song and talked about *coughs*.. the erm.. how shall we put it, EX.. saying that the song really reminds him of her etc.. which in a way is quite cool. then he dedicated a song to me.. he goes ''this is one of my favourite songs gem'' --> put it on and said it woz my song :-) DJ Sammy --> heaven.. aww bless. at that point i just wanted to hug him, *blushes*
then we talked about smoking.. and he goes.. (as man in the mirror woz playing).. i need to change my ways.. he looked up at me eye to eye.. and said.. i need to quit smoking.. ''seriously mush''.. (lol).. and he just looked at me and said ''do u like me?''... i just nodded and looked at him, and he goes ''see, i've gotta quit smoking, for gem''.. and i woz like, fred mate.. im not gonna make u stop smoking, it doesn't even bother me that much.. but bless him anyway :-) ... ---> anyway, so yeh.. it woz all going good, then after about well quite a while this woz now about 9:45.. they went and got some chips from the chippy.. stacey peapod still hadn't finished work, but they got her some anyway :-).. yeh so they came back with the chips.. and we sat eating them.. outside, which woz cool.. then stacey peapod arrived!! --> more drink :-D.. haha
ate our chips.. and just basically drunk, lol... then it kinda went downhill.. infact extremely downhill :-(.. everything woz going fine.. laughing and joking outside, kinda making abit too much noise but never mind, as this point we were all extremely pissed, and i had copped ginger.. :-S ooppss.
anyway.. then we ''went'' inside, sat watching tele for abit.. didn't go too well.. stacey and ginger were ''together'' and me and fred well, we copped.. then it woz all weird.. then fred decided to sit, well lay.. on the swing.. so i went out to talk to him coz things were going very dodgey! and i said, ''u alright'' he didn't look alright.. to me anyway.. he goes ''im thinking'' and i said ''what about'' and he looked at me, with his gorgeous blue eyes (lol, had to put that in there) and said ''you'' *i woz like.. ooo shit, wot have i done*.. but it woz cool, we chatted for a while, then i went back inside and left him coz he said he felt ''rotten''.
he eventually came in.. as i was walking upstairs.. he shouted me.. pulled my arm and said ''gem, sorry about tonight''.. then we copped again.. which woz nice, as he said sorry..--> becoz he did really upset me.
i then went upstairs.. got all the covers and brought them downstairs.. we then had a big arguement over who woz sleeping where!! :-S.. very late now.. about 3/4/5 in the morning.. so.. i had one sofa, fred had the other .. ginger woz on the floor and stacey went upstairs.. lol, after her and fred were fighting for about an hour!
stace, who had to leave for 9.30.. got up with me.. but then i went back to bed coz i woz knackered... then ginger woz sick... all over the place.. so i had to wash all the bed sheets.. tut, lol.. but at least i knew how to use the washing machine.. stacey left in the morning.. and i woz left with a very ill ginger and a very tired fred!!
he does look really nice when hes asleep.. bless him. :-)
sunday: woz cool, we got on really well... ginger woz sick.. AGAIN!! --> so i had to basically clean the whole floor, lol... tut. :-P we watched the football and stuff... had a good laugh.. then they left me at about 2.30/3 ish.
we kissed before he left :-) .. i checked the house thoroughly and packed my bags for my dads :-)
so.. then i woz just listening to music.. waiting for stace.. :-) as her dad woz driving us to my dads --> so.. we were on our way at about 5.30 ish.. i found my way no problem lol.. he he, genius! :-D
it woz really cool when we got there.. dad and chris had put us a card and a bottle of cider in our bedroom as a congratulations for our exams.. bless um' that really touched me.. :-) so we had a drink with staceys mum and dad then went up to see emma.. at this point i am still feeling dodgey from the night before.. lol but we still had a couple of beers in the conservatory :-P ---> hehe
monday: went to medowhall with emma and stace.. shopping!! :-D --> i got a top that says ''pineapple'' on it.. he he how cool, its very me! --> good day!
tuesday: went bowling, with chris and dad.. chris couldn't bowl coz she has hurt her thumb bless her so.. it woz just me, stace and dad... i came.. last twice. he he, then beat stace on the last game :-P
then we went out for tea with dad, chris and my nan... had a very nice salad but only really wanted the profiteroles.. (not sure how u spell that) BUT me and stace we bloody gutted as they didn't have any left!! tut tut
we'll never go there again.. but we had a good laugh!!
wednesday: me and stace went into chesterfeild with my nan.. lol, bless her.. we had a laugh and she bought me some clothes *shh... peacocks* -> he he. OOOO.. and i nearly had a bloody car!! --> fiat punto, brown..lol.. only fault. but hey, im not complaining!! --> but i couldn't have it becoz it woz a faulty starter!. lol
wednesday night, i phoned fred... hadn't spoken to him since sunday, it woz alright.. i spose :-)
thursday: me and stace went into crystal peaks.. more shopping :-D as dad gave me some money for passing my exams :-) ... then we came back. and i can't remember really wot happened then.. thursday night woz the pub quiz, lol... me and stace (pair of blondes) lol, only got 36/60.. he he, but thats not that bad.. that woz a good laugh.. we then went upstairs.. with some drink :-D.. and had a laugh.. john phoned! and i txt barney :-)
--> all throughout the week.. stacey had this bloody hand puppet thing that she kept putting on the wall.. (shadow) lol, and doing random quote from films.. mainly shrek and the bloody muffin man!.. --> she had my crying every night, lmao.. but i spose u had to be there!!!
friday: we had a day in.. nicked loads stuff outa dads office, lol.. like posters etc..
OVERALL.. a very good week and me and stace got on really well :-)
came back saturday.. reunited with the family etc.. lol, woz alright :-)
so since then... we went back to school to sign up for 6th form on tuesday 2nd september... then actually started.. last thursday. :-).. its alright, very weird not seeing certain people.. ollie, david etc..
this weekend.. saturday: sarah t came round to do some psychology.. she brought me dinner bless her, maccy dees.. uumm, very nice!! :-D then i went up to linzi's and we went round to rob's! --> he had a lan thing.. him, jim, reis, doug and will.. we had a laugh.. got drunk lol.. then we went back to linzi's got a kebab.. and watched the ring! --> very good film, but hard to understand!! --> then we went round to martins.. got even more drunk and ended up jumping in random conifers.. lol, cut all my legs but never mind!! --> :-D .. ended up stopping at linzis house. :-)
sunday: woke up really early.. which is dodgey for linz and the fact that we were very drunk the night before. then we went back round to rob's :-).. lol, reis and doug had gone.. rob woz in the shower.. so we got a can and made ourselves at home.. bless him! :-).. we ended up watching american pie 3.. which is nowhere near as good as the first 2.. but anyway.. i cuddled up with jim, which woz nice and we just sat and talked for abit! :-) linz got totally drunk, lol.. then, we left them and went round to martins.. he has a wicked bedroom.. lol, stayed there for abit then went out randomly.. walking! --> good weekend :-)
monday: back to school.. woz very boring, had half the day doing nothing.. with jodie! then to top the day off.. woz a very good assembly.. uummm *coughs* --> josh woz in school today, woz cool to see him again.. he looked quite nice actually..
got home and i had decided earlier on in the week, that i woz going to be in contact with fred.. coz its been too long! so, i rung him... he woz on the bus on his way back from college!.. --> bless and asked me to ring him back later.. so at about 8.30 ish.. my parents had gone shopping so i used the house phone.. to not waste my credit.. not that phoning fred is wasting it.. oh u know wot i mean!! --> yeh so we were on the phone for about 20/25 minutes talking about everything.. it woz really really good, we talked about my a-levels and stuff and he says ''u will pass, i have faith in ya gem''.. bless he he, *touched* and we went over our day in lincoln and the night at my house.. but overall.. everything seemed to be ok . :-) --> i decided to take him out of my locket and try to get over him in a sense that we r just good friends that r going to keep in touch :-)
TODAY: hooorrahh, nearly finished.. lol .. woz alright :-).. didn't have any frees today, triple R.E then P.S.E then double BIO.. so an alright day today :-)
speak soon.. *promises*
loving -- uummm.. fred/barney..
wanting -- my neck to stop hurting
thinking -- my neck hurts!!
needing -- a drink which i am just about to go and get, lol.
wishing -- not sure really.. just for everything to be alright with everything for a while :-)