12:30 am and feeling down....
Oh! As though ya'll didn't know I would be feeling down. I'm ALWAYS down! It's just that no one knows that I am... The pretender at large all the time...Okay anyway! The first two days of classes have gone well. All my teachers are cool as-well I don't know what, but they're cool! I'm taking Sociology, Choir, Psychology, A Survey of US History, and Economics 2105-again. I have the same teacher too....
Okay, I went on a semi-blind date tonight....Wait, it wasn't even a date. It was kind of like a-"i meet you, you meet me...and that's it." He's a friend of a guy that one of my girlfriends is seeing. He's black. I don't normally talk to black guys, but I thought that he seemed nice and somewhat interested-I don't know! So we talked. Then his friend(my girlfriends guy) decided to come visit her. So the guy that I've been talking with came along. When I saw him I just KNEW that it wouldn't work out. I was already nervous about meeting him. Upon seeing him, there was no vibe there. NOTHING! As I watched my friend and her guy hug and kiss and-do God knows what when I wasn't looking I thought to myself! AWWWWWWW!!!! They make such a cute couple! They mesh well too.... The frined of her guy, although we can talk on the phone and we can laugh, there's nothing other than that. I wish I could be with Joseph. Now there's a man I would love to be with....but he's taken... But anyway back to earlier in the evening. So my friend decided that we should go out to eat. I have low self-esteem and I honestly can't stand eating out. I feel completely uncompfortable. Plus I'm not used to sitting down and waiting for my food and chit-chatting with the people around me. I would have rather ate at the bar where there's at least a TV...So we wait for our food and I stare out the window. Listening a little bit to the conversation at the table. Food comes eat listen to more chit-chat. Feeling bored and tired a little upset that this guy would be in my room until about 11pm... After finishing eating we left. They dropped me and my semi-date off at my hall. My roommate was in. He watched real world from the floor (i don't know why) while I studied Sociology. He got tired around 11pm and called his friend then a few minutes later he came over and they were gone...
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