| Current mood: |  crushed |
Just fucking shoot me
*Wishes she were anywhere else but here*
I'm stuck in toowoomba. Everyone is at the big day out....Greg, Steve, Gav, Lydia and some of Liddy's mates. Oh and not to mention emmily and her boi. They're all having a whale of a time and I'm not even passing in their minds. Am I such a bad person that they all get to have fun while I'ms tuck here in this shitty reality that is my life without anything to do and anywhere to go????
I tried my damned hardest to get a ticket bay and everywhere is sold out. The boi'z are going to try and get me a ticket from a scalper but the chances are highly unlikely. It's already 10.30. They left at 8.30 so unless they stopped along the way they're probably already there/ Pumped and excited and willing to have a ball. No word from them so I guess that my luck has run out. guess a boring life at home is what I'm desitned to live forever.
Funny how I was the one who really wanted to go and yet everyone else managed to get tickets and I didn't. It fucken sucks that my best mate and my boyfriend are both there and I'm not and neither of them are thinking about me. They'll be having way too much fun. They'll come back tomorrow now and I'll have to sit there listening to them talk about it for the next week. I just want to shoot myself.
This year was supposed to be an awesome year. It really was. I was determined to make this year MY year and so far everything has been going wrong. problems with my car, holidays fucked up, new years fucked up, no where to go, still broke and the only one stuck at home while everyone else is at the big day out having an absolute ball. why me??? why have the past 2years of my life been shit and why will this year continue to follow the rest? Someone please give me an answer.
I'm supposed to be meeting up with Dan later on today. Least that's something for me to do. Not seeing him until after 3pm though which means I basically have all day to try and entertain myself as well as try to entertain myself tonight as well. This really fucken sucks. I just want to die. I'm at the point where I feel pathetic and hopeless and once again I just want to up and leave everything and get away. But can I do that? NO.
I'm done bitching. Ima go cry myself into a hole now while I think about everyone having fun whilst not thinking about me. Have a great day ya'll. Hope you have fond happy memories of such a great day together.
ShOrTaY
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