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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I wouldn't even call these two weeks or so off a break.. it's sucked. I mean, there were a few good things here and there, but basically it was lame. And it's not only that which makes it all over. All the depression is pretty much gone now. At least for right now. Hopefully, for a very long time. Staying home, having nothing to do but think and reflect over things that have happened.. has really taught me a few lessons. And made me realize a lot.. and has given me time to talk things out and get things straight. First and foremost, about this guy I'm going crazy over.. I had a long talk w/ him about it. I let him know EVERYTHING I felt, I spilled it all out. At that point I didn't care if he snapped on me, didn't want to talk to me anymore.. I just needed to speak my mind. And I was really relieved when he understood. :) He said he cares about me.. that he doesn't want to see me upset. And that he wishes I would've told him everything on my mind sooner instead of letting it get to me. He also said that he likes me, but he's not sure it's in a relationship way because he doesn't know me well enough like that. Personally, from all the long nights we've stayed up talking and so forth, I think I know him pretty well. At least more so than my most recent ex.. But ya, new subject. Yesterday was pretty cool. I went over to hang out w/ my cuzn, Josh, and Cam.. and ended up stayin the night since my aunt thought it'd be better not to go out so late. And it was fine w/ me, had nothin else to do. At times it was boring, like when Josh was at work, Cam at his dad's house packing or w/e, and Mike on the comp. So I sat there for a while, going through my phonebook on my cell, looking for people to call. Of course I talked to Lindsay.. I do everyday. I hadn't talked to Kylene on the phone for a while so I called her. Wrong timing, I'll just say that.. lol. I called Corey but he was off w/ his friends. I called Ashley but she was gone over Mallory's. SoOo I saw this dude Duston's number up there, that I totally forgot about. I met him at the scope when I went to a hockey game w/ Ky. I called just to joke around, and see if he remembered me.. Well ya, he remembered me. He was like 'omg you actually called me after 3 months?!'.. lol. Didn't expect him to actually want to talk to me or anything. But ya, he said he wants to meet up next weekend and possibly hang out at his house. Because 'I'm hot' and he wants to get to know me. Uh ya buddy, I'm not that stupid you know. Well, it was a bad idea to call him w/o at least blocking my #, cuz now he calls my cell like twice every damn hour and BRAGS. About the money he's making, his car and some stupid race, all these girls that want him.. ugh. So pretty soon I'm getting his # blocked. :) I stayed up really late last night. Well, this morning. lol. Didn't fall asleep until 6. After Mike went to sleep I talked to Cam and Josh for a lil bit and got on the comp to see if Corey was on. I wanted to call him again but figured it'd be better to just talk to him online. SoOo we had another long conversation, didn't stop talking till like 4:30. Afterwards I watched a lil tv and by the time I was ready to go to sleep the only other person up was Cam. And it felt weird for some reason, I guess cuz we almost went out over the summer.. so I told him night and headed upstairs. Layed down for a while, thinking like usual, and finally went to sleep. This mornin I woke up at 12 I think. And I am tired. lol. I couldn't have slept any longer or there was no way possible I'd be able to get to sleep at a reasonable time tonight. I still doubt it.. I say around 12 or 1 maybe. But ya, left my cuzn's at about 2.. after they finished packing. We said bye to everyone and as soon as you know it I was home. It's kinda sad cuz I'ma miss em. I only get to see em a few times a year, and Mike is basically my brother. We love and hate each other so much it's rediculous.. lol. Today I haven't done much. But get everything ready for school I guess. Felt like cleaning my room more so than it already was, so now it's nearly spotless. Only for a cpl days or so though. And I had major laundry to do, so I did that. And I cleaned out my car.. since they're comin to take it some day this week. :( Now I'm sitting here, bored but not bitchy. It's a happy kinda bored I guess you could say.. I don't feel like doing anything. In all honesty, I know it's a shocker but I'm kinda happy bout school tomorrow. Get to see people I wasn't lucky enough to hang out w/ this whole time.. lol. And now, I gotta few things left to do.. sOo I'll be back later. :) Sarah Post a comment in response: |
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