|Current mood:|| happy|
|Current music:||"Turn, Turn, Turn" - Byrds - in my head|
Sock it to me
I'm psyched! EP and I are finally starting up a new Bible study. Been a few years since we last had one.
To tell the truth, I was the one who put and end to our former lesson sessions. We'd finish one 10-week course and start another 9-week one right up. Then on to another 10 weeks and another topic.
Guess what. None of it was sticking. I wanted to learn more about God and what He had to say and we were whizzing past it all with no lasting results.
That's about the same time as we were having a bit of a thing going on at church and an upheaval of leadership. So, with that and for a few more reasons, I really pulled back and away from "church".
After all, I'd been going to that one church ever since we moved here back in 1991. And I'd only become a Christian in 1990. I had to pull back and see, among other things, if I was following God or following a cultural definition of how to follow God.
My faith in God has never wavered. But, you know, if you spend all day doing things that God never asked you to do, then what the heck are you doing in trying to please Him that way?
Little by little I've learned how much of my life has been busy "doing" instead of "following."
We started going to a new church last summer. I love hearing this pastor speak. It's a whole other perspective. Less about the Holy Spirit and what He can do for me and more about God, the Father, and all that's He's already done for me and will continue to do.
And now we (EP and I) are starting a new Bible study that fits right into this whole mindset. It's about believing God rather than just believing IN Him. Do I really, in my brain and in my actions, really believe everything that He says? I'd like to think so, but why then, don't I act on it? Hmmmm.
This is going to be great. A great chance to see things as they are and grow! Growth (and lack of same) shall be duly noted here.
(To D: now would be a good time to stop reading this if you'd like to continue believing that I'm an angelic and PERFECT person . . . which I am, of course. Heh.)