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Her Eye Is On The Sparrow
All right, so I don't keep update with this. Life has been shoving me one way and another for some time now. There has been so much going on that I'm not sure actually getting anywhere, to be honest with you. People figure that where I'm working, it's a hectic atmosphere, a dangerous territory and that I could quite possibly get extremely ill from it all. Quite the contrary, actually which is quite nice. It seems that the customer prefer speaking with me, they wish to stay in touch with me and hope that I'm the one to be on the other end, one day soon. No offence, I highly doubt that's going to happen. It's a fairly rare occasion that'll happen but hey, who knows, right?
The move on August 1st was a miracle. Angelis and I really needed to get out the rut we were in before. It was literally hell... We paid everything, we cleaned up, Daisy (the cat) was left starving until we showed up. Poor thing needed some TLC and I happened to come around when I did. She fell in love with me as fast as I did for her. There was no way I was going to leave her behind, naturally Angelis didn't have any complaints about it as long as Treble was fine with it. Now we live all together, things are going all right, I guess. I still do most of the cleaning (again), we game a lot more, what with 3 computers in the house now. We have an A/C and a BBQ which is quite handy to have since the food just tastes all the better grilled rather than pan fried.
Is it ever possible for someone to move on from a traumatic event? Is it wrong to still feel pain over something, to cry inside, to search for a dark shadow, to want to return to that innocence? None of them around understand and for some time, none will. I don't bestow that onto anyone and couldn't bare to think about it happening. Life just seemed to have flipped upside since it happened. My writings, my poetry, my musings have all seemed to be delayed, nay.. destroyed since the happening. I realized that the Catholic religion was only her belief, not mine. I led it because it made her happy. I now walk the path of a straying wanderer, in search of answers that I'm wondering if I really need to ask the question or not. I understand that I made mistakes to walk the path that I'm on, I had to become flawed in some areas or to some people's opinion. Now it's not that I wanted to wrong them, that I wanted to offend them but we had seen different perspectives. Thankfully, there have been some (Ahem.. Dep), who have witnessed a similar situation that I'm in or rather.. was in? anyway and we got to speak it over and he apologized over all the little nit-fits that we had. We found it that we had both been childish and to have him finally understand my side of it meant the world to me.
The upcoming event though is that Jart will be coming to see me. Oh dear dear Jart. What fun times we will have! Mmmm... Newfie duck! Heh. I suppose for a quick rant, this'll do.
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