|Current mood:|| lethargic|
|Current music:||"I hate everything about you"~three days grace|
Yay! My first entry!
Well kids, my life is not as peachy keen as everyone may think! I'm trying to keep my emotions calm, despite everything that is going on around me! I'm failing one of my college courses.. so ill have to withdrawal b4 nov.11th so it doesnt bring down my GPA! One of my friends has not talked to me in about a month, he's never online, so he'll never see this journal! I will not use any names but i will use intials. CG and i were good friends, but he liked me way more than i liked him and it was a lil scary to me, I've never had anyone feel so strongly about me and the thought of getting close to him and then letting him down.. was not an easy thing to come to grips with. So i ended it before it started, we fought a few time n now that he has a g/f i'm wishing i could have him back! hey, im one of those gurls that wants what she cant have! I guess i need to go out n find myself a guy, seems CG will never be coming back to me, ive tried calling him, emailing him, sending messages his yahoo s/n, but not even a hello, seems i really screwed that frienship up, eventho he did his equal share of it.
Besides that, most of my friendships right now are ok.
Jinah- gurl, u is my bestest friend and no one can ever take that away. its really great to have a friend to share all your good times and bad times with. mucho luv my chica
.... n to everyone else i love muah muah muah muah muah muah ... hehe kisses for all
Sorry bout that! and to all the nay-sayers fuck y'all! you dont matter to me! :-D
Life right now is extremely confusing. I don't know whats going on around me anymore. I wish sometimes i knew what the purpose to life is.. instead of sitting around lettin life pass and "letting the answers come to me!" Some guy randomly IMed me and was talking to me about not worrying and living life to the fullest, i never told him i had a problem or anything he just IMed me and randomly brought up all this stuff! i barely said a word to me and he was saying how nice of a gurl i am and stuff, eventho he doesnt know me! i swear he must have been a preacher with nothing better to do on a sunday than IM random young gurls and talking about worrying too much. But, he told me he was a vaccum salesman, jesus freak.. vaccum salesman, all the same!
Well, i def. could go on and on about all the details of my life, but for right now, i think im gonna go dream cuz its 2 in the AM and im tired as shit. Catch up with y'all later! much love, shell