i've always suspected that one reason i've never fully made this blog private is that secretly i want someone to stumble on it again and see these posts that are me ... in the most honest form. not that the feelings here won't change and that the perspectives will shift but that the words represent what i'm thinking ... right here, right now ...
it's been confusing lately; where do j. and i stand? should i care to be in this gray area? maybe j.j. was right ... there's no time for these complications in my life right now.