*sneeze*....sorry i'm allergic to bullshit
i had a dream last night, and i was holding hands and cuddling with this person... I don't actually remember the face, but I felt it was brett. Brett has been in my dreams sometimes. and it's never been a hateful one. it's always been a nice one, a romantic ones, a pleasant one... something that I longed for in a relationship. I don't know what to think of that. Don't dreams tell you your deepest feelings? I'm sure I don't like brett like that and i'm sure that he most likely doesn't like me like that, and I know it probably could never work out... we're too different... and sure, i hate him when he's being a hypocrite and when he thinks too highly of himself - thinking he's this when he's not.... but whats do those dreams mean? I wish I knew.
sometimes I wish I knew what people think of me. well, let me rephrase that. I wish I knew what certain people think of me. At times I feel like they're hiding something from me. and I want to know the truth... so that I'm not wasting my time being their friend.. or i'm not wasting my time wondering if they like me back. for some reason, It would be nice to get ride of insecurites. I think not having those insecurities will make me happier and more condfident in myself. But who knows, insecurites probably shape personalities and we probably have them for a reason.
I watched 4 movies this weekend. @_@ and I earned 40 buckaroos. WHOO!
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