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Well, my 18th birthday was yesterday! Yay.... I am finally legal. *shrug* Anyway, I am starting to lose some weight, I have already lost like 5 lbs. However, I blew it today!!! Tomarrow it's back to the diet and gym. I make myself sick sometimes. At least I had a nice birthday though, and I got some clothes out of it. I haven't written in my journal for a while. I suppose it's due to the fact that I have been feeling apathetic this past week. I have been thinking about Matt alot lately. I really miss him. =(
I know that I have Dan and everything but, it's still hard to not think about Matt anymore because I really truly loved him very much. But 'Cest la vie' as they all say. What a fucking bullshit cliche. I suppose it has some valid point though. Finals are soon, I am really anticipating summer! I've really pushed myself this week, I have made myself goto the gym EVERYDAY M-F burning at least 800 cals everytime I went. The max was like 1,000.
Also, since I ate so much today, I purged because I felt guilty for eatting what I did, so I had to "repent" per se to Ana and Mia. tomarrow, I really don't feel like doing much but doing the rest of my work, studying a little for finals, and relaxing because I have school Monday morning, and also I have to work on this presentation with Richard and other people in my group.
I can't wait until I get that out of the way so I can just relax and worry about finals. Since I am 18 now, I hope I get enough money from relatives to get my tattoo that costs $100.00 because I am broke until I get that check in the mail sometime next month. it's for $500.00, that will be really nice. At least i'll have a job by the time school gets out so i'll have tons of free time to work and get my account back up so I won't be so poor and depending on other sources for money. I really hate doing that, it makes me feel like more of a loser than I already am.