|Current mood:|| relieved|
|Current music:||Santa Got A Sunburn: By The Barefoot Man|
oh wow, i did it
...i think darren and i are over. it ended unlike it was supposed to, and he reacted like that of a complete asshole! oh well. i went over there to help him wrap presents and he said we needed to talk. he asked me if i wanted to live with him, and i said no. then he asked if i still wanted to be with him, and i said i didnt know for sure. then he started with this "im a great boyfriend, i treat you like a princess, you dont know what you are throwing away, blah blah blah--" totally making me feel bad, but i think it is better to do this now, before everything gets wrose. i cannot go on making him think i want to spend the rest of my life with him. i feel as though a weight has been lifted, i dont feel good about what i have dont, but i dont feel as though ive made the wrong decision either. my aunt gracie and i were talking earlier about this whole situation, and i asked her if i should just give the presents back, and she said "hell no, they were gifts to you," but i am giving the jewlery back, (is it wrong that i want to keep the northwood hoodie?) i wouldnt be able to wear it though, i would feel as though i was advertising my x-boyfriend's college.
ahhhhh sisi, when you read this, call me
merry christmas to all and to all, ...........merry christmas