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To Christopher -
When I think about how much I love you, it totally overwhelms me. It is such a huge feeling. You have given me a gift that no one has ever given me: the freedom and encouragement to be emotionally open and without filters. It makes for a very complicated relationship between us. So much hurt and anger that have been hidden away all my life are now exposed and so often come tumbling out onto you. I know that you worry sometimes that I am unhappy. I'm not but the price of your gift is that it has uncovered a lot of unhappiness from my childhood. This is the unhappiness you see and this is the unhappiness that makes me want to run away and hide. It isn't from you. It isn't from what we share together. It is from the pain that was hidden for so long and it now exposed and felt so forcefully. Your willingness to witness my pain and to let it wash over you is a love beyond measure.
I can't imagine a life without you. You are my lover, my partner, my friend. You are my soulmate in every sense of the word.
To kitty -
If Christopher is my soulmate, you are my very soul. The blossoming of our friendship into a deeper relationship was unplanned and unexpected. You challenge me daily to be a more complete person. You inspire me with your courage. You help me understand everything that tumbles out of me. You allow me to love you even when it scares and confuses you. You keep loving me even when it scares and confuses me.
You are so precious to me. Every moment we spend together is like looking into a mirror. It let's me see myself in ways I never knew were there. It is rarely easy but it is always good. I thank God every day that you are in my life.
To lissa -
Our relationship got off to a very rocky start and it has been hard for both us to get past that. We jumped into being a family with very little knowledge of each other. It wasn't easy. That was then. Now we are a family and I'm really glad that you are a part of it.
I've often described you to people as a prickly pear: hard and sharp on the outside, soft and sweet on the inside. It's an apt description. The more I get to know you, the more I appreciate the soft sweetness. The last year has seen a lot of pain up out of my soul and I have come to rely on your comfort in those moments. You are a soothing presence at times when everything else is frightening to me.
I know that the last year has been a challenge for you. It's been very hard for you to let me inside of the shell that has protected you for so long. Thank you for the trust you have given me.
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